SECRETS

Yes, it's a secret. I'm keeping it going without him knowing it.

I cannot even think straight

I have lost my beauty at the age of nineteen. It vanished with me sense of balance. I tried to ransom it when I reached twenty but somehow I failed. In return, I substituted what was lost in me by forced maturation and inclusion of intellectual matters. But still, it was not enough to make me feel alright.

What was lost in me was taken by so called extreme condition that I have encountered.

I knew it from the start, but I didn't mind.
What was it that dominated in me?

They call it BITTERNESS.

PEOPLE AND THEIR EGOS

I often got lost my cue and simply can't swallow my rage at some injustices, don't you think that sometimes I have cause for complaints? It;s a good thing I am not a grouser because then I might get sour and bad-tempered.

How easily one could be betrayed by being a little careless?

I have to think myself firmly in hand before I mix with other people,
otherwise they would think my mind rather queer.

Stupid people.

FUCKED UP POSITIVITY

Starting to forget all the pain inside,
I have learned to hide so well.
I used to be sure with what I really feel,
now I don't know anymore.

Answer me

How can I runaway from things that are in my head?

ASDFGHJKL

Go ahead and push me away and then wonder why I'm not there when you change your mind. Rejection doesn't mean I'm not good enoug, it just means they don't realize what i have to offer.

I kept loving you until that moment when I realized that I have nothing left to give anymore.