SPARKS FLEW

I must become good through my own efforts, without examples and without good advice. Then later on, i shall be all the stronger. Who, besides me will ever read those letters? From whom but myself shall i get comfort? As i need comforting often, I frequently feel weak and dissatisfied with myself because my shortcomings are too great. I know this and every day i try to improve my self again and again. I am not a baby or a spoiled darling anymore to be laughed at. i have my own views, plans and ideas, though i cant put them into words yet. oh. so many things bubble up inside me as i lie in bed, having to put up with people i am fed up with, who always misinterpret my intentions.
That is where i start and finish.

It was mighty difficult to be on such model behavior with people you can't bear, especially when you don't mean a word of it. But I do really see that i get better by shamming a bit, instead of my old habit of telling everyone exactly what i think
(although no one ever asked my opinion or attached the slightest importance to it.)

I often lose my cue and simply can't swallow my rage at some injustice, don't you think that sometimes i have cause for complaints? Its a good thing i am not a grouser, because then i might get sour and bad-tempered. I am really curious to know what will come of it all, but i don't think the plan will come off.

i PROMISE i will find my own way through it all, and swallow my tears.
I only wish i could see the results occasionally or even receive an encouragement from the people who loves me.

Don't condemn me, remember rather that sometimes i too can reach the bursting point.

LAY IT ALL DOWN

Got a fist of pure emotion.
Got a head of shattered dreams.

A tumblr message from a stranger

Hello sweetie! You're not at all a watered-down version of Delilah. I reckon that you're much prettier than all those Disney princesses in their stunning long gowns and much sexier than all those Amazon warriors I fancy when I was younger. I mean it. :)

A random thought in a box.

Take chances, take a lot of them. Because honestly, no matter where you end up and with whom, it always ends up just the way it should be. Your mistakes make you who you are. You learn and grow with each choice you make.

Everything is worth it.

Say how you feel always. Be you and be okay with it. :)