PEOPLE AND THEIR EGOS

I often got lost my cue and simply can't swallow my rage at some injustices, don't you think that sometimes I have cause for complaints? It;s a good thing I am not a grouser because then I might get sour and bad-tempered.

How easily one could be betrayed by being a little careless?

I have to think myself firmly in hand before I mix with other people,
otherwise they would think my mind rather queer.

Stupid people.

FUCKED UP POSITIVITY

Starting to forget all the pain inside,
I have learned to hide so well.
I used to be sure with what I really feel,
now I don't know anymore.

Answer me

How can I runaway from things that are in my head?

ASDFGHJKL

Go ahead and push me away and then wonder why I'm not there when you change your mind. Rejection doesn't mean I'm not good enoug, it just means they don't realize what i have to offer.

I kept loving you until that moment when I realized that I have nothing left to give anymore.    

BACK FOR GOOD

Got  a fist of pure emotions.

Got a head of shattered dreams.

Got to leave it. Got to leave it all behind now.

I want you back. I want you back for good.

SPARKS FLEW

I must become good through my own efforts, without examples and without good advice. Then later on, i shall be all the stronger. Who, besides me will ever read those letters? From whom but myself shall i get comfort? As i need comforting often, I frequently feel weak and dissatisfied with myself because my shortcomings are too great. I know this and every day i try to improve my self again and again. I am not a baby or a spoiled darling anymore to be laughed at. i have my own views, plans and ideas, though i cant put them into words yet. oh. so many things bubble up inside me as i lie in bed, having to put up with people i am fed up with, who always misinterpret my intentions.
That is where i start and finish.

It was mighty difficult to be on such model behavior with people you can't bear, especially when you don't mean a word of it. But I do really see that i get better by shamming a bit, instead of my old habit of telling everyone exactly what i think
(although no one ever asked my opinion or attached the slightest importance to it.)

I often lose my cue and simply can't swallow my rage at some injustice, don't you think that sometimes i have cause for complaints? Its a good thing i am not a grouser, because then i might get sour and bad-tempered. I am really curious to know what will come of it all, but i don't think the plan will come off.

i PROMISE i will find my own way through it all, and swallow my tears.
I only wish i could see the results occasionally or even receive an encouragement from the people who loves me.

Don't condemn me, remember rather that sometimes i too can reach the bursting point.

LAY IT ALL DOWN

Got a fist of pure emotion.
Got a head of shattered dreams.